Okay! Okay! Okay!

Gah! I can't take a little break without The Internet? getting all over my ass? Geez!

And for the record, between the two of them, I talk (chat, IM, text message, whatever) with Adam
& The Zenchick like a bazillion times a day, so it's not like they haven't heard from me at all.

As for the rest of you, I am truly sorry if I worried you. I guess I wasn't very specific in my last post.

The craziness I referred to, was due to work-related stress, not SSRI withdrawal or strep throat or the sinus infection I got following the strep throat. It's been a fun few weeks filled with mulitple visits to the pharmacy and various health care professionals.

Just so you know, I am now SSRI free and I feel fine. Great in fact.

And Patrick...you were right. *wink*

I won't write specifically about the work-related stress here. I have no desire to ever be dooced. I will say it has been a true test of the newly un-medicated Other Brian. I've been viewing situations, professionally and personally, and can see a distinct difference between the way the old Brian would have handled things opposed to the way the new improved Brian does.

It's The New Improved Other Brian, now with Mountain Fresh Scent!

Adam never got to see the old Brian, just the transition Brian, which is pretty close to the new Brian. One night he asked what the old Brian was like.

"Oh, you would have hated that guy. He was too quiet and shy. He was all wrapped up in what he thought other people thought of him. He had no confidence or idea of who he was. He was a real drag."

Last week I had my first appointment with my therapist after a six week break. I told her about all the shit going on and how I reacted to it. She asked how the old me would have dealt.

"He would have internalized it all and made himself sick over it. He would have been miserable."

"And the new..."

"The new me is decisive. He responds quickly and takes action immediately."

"That's great."

"Yeah. It is."

So know that despite all the bullshit going on, I am taking steps to fix it. And it will be fixed.

Thank you all for your emails and comments. I really, really, really, appreciate them. Next time I take a blogging vacation, I will try to drop you a few postcards.